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If only one person had intervened and stopped the predators from drugging my daughter with Ghb, it may have saved her life. http://okanaganlife.com/2011/04/date-rape-drug/

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The psychology behind predators who drug their victims: http://answerit.news24.com/Question/psychology_behind_predators_that_drug_before_they_rape/21670. As the following link points out, the date rape drug Ghb is difficult to trace as it metabolizes out of the body within 72 hrs. The toxicology samples taken from my daughter indicated massive amounts of
Ghb still in her system 24 hrs. after death. http://www.teendrugabuse.org/drugs-abused/facts-about-date-rape-drugs/



{April 23, 2011}   Predators

What do you say about a man who deliberately allows your daughter to die while in his company? Murder? Homicide? Criminal Negilence? Manslughter? The disctrict attorney said there wasn’t enough evidence and filed the case away as a cold case unless and until someone comes forward with new evidence.

What can you say to the person, who in response to your questions about his behavior says, “it was a bad judgment call.” I cannot comprehend this man of no honor, Abstract Rude, who my daughter was with when she died although in perfect health 45 minutes prior to being in his company at his music studio.

It is twelve years and not a word of explanation or sorrow has this man expressed to me and my son since I ask him, why didn’t you call 911? “It was a bad judgment call.” I think that is a valid response when you have a car accident but when you cause the death of someone it is inappropriate. It is tragic that Abstract Rude is out there making music and appeals to unsuspecting women, who could also end up like my daughter.

My beloved daughter died while with Abstract Rude Easter morning, 1999. Somehow Ghb got into something she was drinking. Oderless, tasteless, colorless…Ghb. No one knew how it got into her drink even though there were several witnesses, whose names no one could remember. And, even though my daughter keeled over unconscious and went into a seizure before falling into a coma, Abstract never called 911.

He told me he laid her on a palette and later laid next to her listening to her shallow breathing and fell asleep himself. Every time I remember him describing that scene to me i.e., the last moments of my daughter’s life, I am horrified that she died because the person she was with was either a complete idiot drugged out of his mind or an absolute egomaniac whose only interest was in protecting his own skin.

Abstract told the police that my daughter ingested Ghb at a club prior to arriving at his music studio. But the club from which she walked to his studio was 13 blocks away. And, by Abstract’s own admission, she was at the music studio approximately 45 minutes before keeling over.  A reaction to Ghb occurs between 10-15 minutes after ingestion and incapacitate a person. Based on the distant, the timeframe and the facts, the only place my daughter could have ingested Ghb was the music studio.

But, Abstract’s version of the truth was that she ingested the Ghb at a club and walked to his studio and he took her to the hospital. He forgets to mention that when he took her to the hospital rigimortis had set in. She was dead-on-arrival.



{April 21, 2011}   The Alchemy of A Shadow Dance

I am writing a fiction based on a memoir that

I’ve written about the Ghb poisoning of my daughter,

Skylar L. Watch for posting of the manuscript coming soon.



{April 21, 2011}   Mother’s Blog

Check out this Blog written by a mother of a victom of date-rape drugging and rape: http://ziggysblogs.blogspot.com/2009/05/teen-trends-date-rape.html



{April 20, 2011}   Raising Date Rape Awareness

This is a great article about raising date rape awareness: http://okanaganlife.com/2011/04/date-rape-drug/



{April 20, 2011}   scopolamine

Follow the link to an article about the drug scopolamine that has a similar affect on the body as date rape drugs: http://biopsychiatry.com/scopolamine/borrachero.html



{April 16, 2011}   Day of Wreckening

Do you have a moment from your life that haunts you as though you were still present in the horror of that moment?  Maybe it was rape, or abandonment, or a near death experience. It recedes much of the year, but can project forward into the present at any given moment. It can drag you down like an undercurrent. For me the moment was my daughter’s death from Ghb poisoning. Her death shattered my entire internal structure. It took a decade before I realized one day that a moment ten years prior held no power over me unless I gave power to the moment. I had not prior to that conceptualized power as energy. Once I had, I made a choice to direct my energy in healing ways, which included healing myself. It is now twelve years since my beloved daughter left us physically and I have been thinking about what I’ve heard many people say about her: she always said something that moved us on to the next level in our thinking. Her death swept me through the valley of death but also forced me to search my soul search and define what had value and truth for me.  In the process, I let go of second-hand beliefs and was delivered to a new level in consciousness. One that recognizes that we are all energy and energy, like love, never dies. It is indivisible. Her energy is all around me. I have chosen to appreciate her energy comingled with mine and the supreme energy of the universe rather than to shutter in a moment shadowed by death. Death awaits us all, it is what we came here to accomplish. To make one person’s life better because you past this way is to have lived. My beloved daughter touched so many lives with her incredible light that we still feel her energy presently among us.



{April 16, 2011}   The Mountain

A world of shadows and dreams is where I follow you.

From high on a mountain top you wave to me and your brother below

encouraging us to ascend toward you.

 But our footsteps through the valleys are small and our journey long as we climb.

And, yet, we follow and continue on to the summit from where your hands reach out to us.

If we falter, your spirit rushes to strengthen us.

If we prevail, your spirit, like a gentle breeze, replenishes us.

You knew what was to be known before it all began.

You never hid.

You innocently ran to greet destiny with an open heart.

It mattered not whether you were to live in the temporal, or in ethereal shadows and dreams.

You are aglow.

Your reddish-gold blond hair streaming behind you as you run toward the sun.

You are eternal light in our darkness.

Our path leads to you.

Unity abounds.



{April 11, 2011}   The Miracle of Spirit

Skylar’s spirit is alive and among us. This has been confirmed by people who knew her and loved her. She is still a bright shining light, a star shining down from above and walking in our midst. Have you witnessed or been aware of the miracle of spirit? Spirit lives forever. Have you ever wondered why you were spared from a fatal accident? A spirit is a guardian angel. They are among us because we love them and keep them alive in our hearts. This song, i listened to over and over after Skylar died, it is “The Arms of An Angel” by SarahMcLauglin
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i1GmxMTwUgs&feature=related



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